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TRUE SPIRIT OF CHRISTMAS
When I was a little boy, people told me that the true spirit of Christmas was
the spirit of giving; but I didn't believe them. I knew that the true spirit of
Christmas was getting. I could hardly wait until Christmas morning when my
mother would stand at the door to the living room that separated me from a
wonder of toys. She would peek through and tell me Santa had been here and
express her surprise that he had given me so much. Then I was obliged to eat
breakfast, make my bed, brush my teeth, and get dressed. The anxiety and
anticipation this caused is impossible to describe. By the time I attacked the
neatly wrapped packages and saw the delights they contained, I was filled with a
joy and relief I have not found comparable to any joy on earth.
I remember the year I grew up. That was the year Christmas lost its magic and I
began to say, like the adults around me, "The true spirit of Christmas is
giving." I found there was satisfaction in giving. But the magic never returned,
and each year as the tree was decorated and the lights were hung on the front
porch I wondered if Christmas wasn't a whole lot better when I thought more
about what I received and less about what I gave.
The years went on and I became a man, giving to my children and secretly envying
their sheer delight at receiving the marvelous gifts of Christmas.
A few years ago I read very carefully the story of the first Christmas in the
Americas. To my wonder and delight I discovered I had been right as a child- the
true spirit of Christmas was the spirit of receiving. Since then, the wonder of
Christmas has returned.
Let me take you in your imagination back to Zarahemla in the year 5 b.c. and let
us live together the most marvelous Christmas story ever written.
The year 5 b.c. is an interesting and challenging time to be a Christian. Our
generation is an unstable one. We have seen the people shift from wickedness to
righteousness and back to wickedness again. We have seen the slow erosion of our
laws until Nephi II, our great prophet and chief judge, gives up the seat of
government, weary with his inability to cause positive reform. He decides the
only way to reform and save his people is in "bearing down in pure testimony,"
as his ancestor Alma had done.
We have seen the rise of the Gadianton robbers. They have filled the judgment
seats. They have assassinated their opponents, and they wield great power. About
ten years ago we saw Nephi bring the people to their knees in repentance through
a prolonged famine that ended for a time the self-destructive wars of our
people. But the people quickly forgot the lesson and have been slipping ever so
quickly back into their materialistic and proud ways.
Most marvelous of all, we have witnessed the end of an era of interracial wars
between the Nephites and Lamanites. As youth, roughly twenty-five years ago, we
witnessed the conversion of the entire Lamanite nation through the preaching of
Nephi and his brother Lehi.
We are adults now with families. Nephi is older, though still actively leading
the Church and preaching the gospel. But there are dark clouds on the horizon.
The strength of the Gadianton robbers is growing again, and the intensity of
faith seems to be waning in the Church. As prosperity flourishes, the lessons of
the past are forgotten. It is an interesting and challenging time to live.
Recently there has been a Lamanite prophet named Samuel preaching in the streets
and markets of Zarahemla. Though we don't know it, he is about to test our faith
and the faith of all the Christians in the land.
The Nephites, unwilling to listen to the exhortations of Samuel, have cast him
out; but as we enter the city, we notice a large crowd in a state of great
excitement gathered near the walls. There on the wall stands Samuel. He has
returned. His message has not changed from his earlier warnings.
An acquaintance of ours approaches us as we listen. He is one who has
relinquished his faith and is caught up in the materialistic greed of a
Gadianton society.
"What do you think of this Lamanite?" he asks us.
"He is a prophet," we answer.
"So he proclaims. Then you believe in his predictions? "
"We accept all the words of a prophet."
As we listen, Samuel begins to speak of Christ, predicting his birth after five
years pass. This is not a new or strange prophecy, for Lehi predicted the Savior
would be born six hundred years after he left Jerusalem. Those with faith and a
calendar know He will come in five years, but our acquaintance asks us, "Do you
believe this, that Christ will come after five years?"
"Yes," we reply. "It has been prophesied from the very beginning by many
prophets." Our acquaintance comments with a mocking tone about the "convenience"
of having Christ born across the sea, in another land, making true verification
impossible. And had Samuel not continued under the inspiration of the Lord, our
faith would not be tried; but Samuel continued.
"And behold, this will I give unto you for a sign at the time of his coming; for
behold, there shall be great lights in heaven, insomuch that in the night before
he cometh there shall be no darkness, insomuch that it shall appear unto man as
if it was day.
"Therefore, there shall be one day and a night and a day, as if it were one day
and there were no night; and this shall be unto you for a sign; for ye shall
know of the rising of the sun and also of its setting; therefore they shall know
of a surety that there shall be two days and a night; nevertheless the night
shall not be darkened; and it shall be the night before he is born.
"And behold, there shall a new star arise, such an one as ye never have beheld;
and this also shall be a sign unto you."
Let us pause a moment in our narrative. I have often wondered how I would have
accepted that pronouncement. I am sure I would have looked at the sun with a
certain uneasiness. I am sure I would have watched it set that night and felt
with a growing fear the darkness settle over the land. I cannot think of a
single prophetic utterance in all of scripture so completely remarkable as this
one. What boldness and courage it took to utter it! What faith and courage it
took to receive it!
As we try to comprehend the impact of this prophecy, our acquaintance, with a
certain delight, turns and asks, "You certainly don't believe that, do you?"
We hesitate. If only Nephi II had uttered it, not a Lamanite prophet newly
arrived in Zarahemla. Our acquaintance notices our hesitation.
"Because of course," he continues, "it is absolutely and utterly impossible for
the sun to go down and it remain as light as day. You know that, don't you?"
I would like to believe that I would have had the faith and the whispered
assurances of the Spirit so that I could have answered the critics and the
mockers. I would have wanted to say, "Yes, I believe Samuel has spoken under the
direction of the Holy Ghost and that this sign will come."
Perhaps our skeptical friend would have answered, "Then you're a bigger fool
than I imagined. But for your sake I hope it comes."
There is the hint of a veiled threat in his words that we do not yet comprehend.
We listen with uneasiness to the rest of Samuel's message, but the words "one
day and a night and a day" haunt our thoughts. The crowd becomes more and more
agitated. Suddenly they are shooting arrows and slinging stones at the figure on
the wall; but they cannot hit him, and the words of Samuel continue. When they
approach to bind him, his message delivered, Samuel leaps from the wall to
return to his own people. "He was never heard of more among the Nephites."
What reflection is contained in that single last line in Helaman! In the coming
months and years, how often would we have wanted to hear Samuel assure us that
his words were inspired, that he knew the sign would come, that he was sure of
God's promise and the coming of the Christ child? But he would not be seen among
the Nephites again.
How often would our scorning friends pick at our faith, during those months and
years, seeking to enlarge the tiny doubts we try to keep from entering our
minds.
"Where is your Lamanite prophet?" they would ask us. "Why do you suppose he's
never returned? He didn't stay to see the sun set, night after night, did he?
But I imagine even a Lamanite prophet knows when he has uttered foolishness.
Give up this ridiculous belief. It will always be dark when the sun sets. How
can it be otherwise?"
The Lord knows how to test his people. There is, however, one thing that we
would have had on our side-Nephi. He is still the prophet, and he assures the
faithful "of things which must shortly come." The Nephi to whom God gave all
power is with us. The Nephi who humbled these same people with famine leads us.
The Nephi who stood face to face with the corrupt lawyers and Gadianton robbers,
predicting their assassinations, revealing their evil plans, and bearing witness
of their sins, stands at our head. With Nephi our fears are calmed; but every
night we watch the sun set, and every night the darkness returns.
When would the fears and doubts, the straining for faith, have become almost
unbearable? The first year? The second? The third? What would have been our
thoughts as the opposition grew and their mocking became increasingly
threatening? How strong would our faith have been when the fifth year began and
the sun set and the night came? How would our fears have increased when the
power of the unbelievers became great, and they proclaimed a day on which all
the believers who did not renounce their faith would be put to death if the sign
didn't come? I wonder how I would have felt as I watched the twilight deepen
night after night and thought of my children sleeping and the fate that awaited
them if the night grew dark one time too many.
More and more we would have turned to Nephi to hear his calm assurance of
faith-"The sign will come, the sign will come." But there would have been other
voices; and though we would have tried to shut them out, at night in the
stillness they would have come and repeated the question asked so often, "How
can there be light when there is no sun?"
Sometime during that last year a new factor enters the test. Nephi II, the
strength of our people, is taken by the Lord. He gives his son Nephi III charge
concerning the plates and "departs out of the land, and whither he went no man
knoweth."
How would this knowledge have greeted us? What doubts would it have sparked
anew? If Nephi II had died, we could have mourned his loss; but there would have
been no awakened opportunity for doubt. But when he just disappears, it is hard
to deny new suspicions.
"Where is your great prophet Nephi?" the unbelievers might have challenged. "Has
he abandoned you to your deaths as Samuel did? Why do you think he left the way
he did, sneaking into the wilderness to save his own life? Even he knows the
sign is an impossibility. Are you still so stubborn in your old traditions that
you can't face reality? There will be no Christ!"
On and on the mocking and challenging continue, and as we eagerly wait for the
sunset each evening the smiles of silent reproach widen on the faces of those
who anticipate the appointed day of destruction.
How would we have felt those last weeks as we "watched steadfastly for that
night and that day"? Would not our prayers have been fervent and deep and full
of meaning? How does it feel to have hope dashed with every setting sun?
How would we have felt the last days while our enemies prepared themselves for
the coming slaughter? On the last day Nephi, with deep concern, kneels and cries
"mightily" for his people. The Lord speaks peace to him saying, "On this night
shall the sign be given." But Nephi cannot spread those words of comfort in a
single day. The people's faith will be tested to the last rays of the setting
sun.
The scriptures are not clear on the method of destruction planned for the
believers. Perhaps they were rounded up into the center of their cities or
outside the walls where at sunset they would be put to the sword. Perhaps mob
rule prevailed and every man sought out his neighbors. As believers, with our
families we watch from our homes the setting sun. If given a final chance that
afternoon to save our lives by renouncing our belief in the Savior, would we
have done so? Would we have thought that if the sign didn't come, life would
have no meaning, for a life without Christ is no life at all?
Holding the hands of our families we step into the open light of late afternoon
and watch what may be our last sunset. There is that moment when the sun hangs
trembling at the brink of the horizon. It slips out of sight. There is a moment
of hesitation, watching, hoping, and questioning. "Is it getting dark? Are our
lives forfeit?" Then there is that moment when the realization enters our hearts
that the darkness is not gathering. It is getting, on the contrary, lighter and
lighter.
If we can picture that moment, if we can transport ourselves past barriers of
time, place, and culture, we will hear a sound. It is the sound of Christmas. It
is the sound of weeping, the sound of gratitude, the sound of joy and triumph
and faith renewed and vindicated. It is the sound of mankind receiving with a
love beyond words the incomparable gift of the Son of God into the world. It is
the true spirit of Christmas-which isn't the spirit of giving at all, but the
spirit of receiving, receiving the love of our Father and His Son, and in its
reception with thankfulness giving God the only gift He seeks, that of a broken
heart and contrite spirit. What a moment and what a sound that is! May its sound
ring through all our Christmases. May we hear it again and again.
What a night that would have been! With what "wondering awe" would we have
searched the sky as the hours passed and the light grew as bright as noonday. We
would have gathered our children around us and reverently taught them the
meaning of a night with no darkness. We would have gathered in small groups of
joy and happiness, almost not daring to believe what our eyes testified was
true. Perhaps we would have sung the hymns of our belief. It would have been a
night never to be forgotten.
With what emotion would we have greeted the rising sun after long hours of
rejoicing? And when the star appeared, our wonder would have been born anew. I
do not believe that an unlearned farm boy from New York could create such a
story. I do not believe any kind of fiction could describe in such simple and
undramatic language a moment, a time, a test, a faith, as sublime as the Nephite
Christmas story. There was such a night of wonder and gratitude.
As a child I felt the wonder of Christmas in a worldly way. As a man the wonder
has turned to a deep appreciation and reverence. It is my hope that we may feel
this wonder all of our lives, especially on those nights when we watch the
sunsets that settle the world into darkness.
Notes
S. Michael Wilcox is the author of To See His Face and Choosing the Fulness:
Wickedness or Righteousness.
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