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White Envelope
The Envelope
It's
just a small, white envelope stuck among the branches of our Christmas
tree. No name, no identification, no inscription. It has peeked through
the branches of our tree for the past 10 years or so. It all began
because my husband Mike hated Christmas-oh, not the true meaning of
Christmas, but the commercial aspects of it -- overspending, the frantic
running around at the last minute to get a tie for Uncle Harry and the
dusting powder for Grandma --t he gifts given in desperation because you
couldn't think of anything else.
Knowing
he felt this way, I decided one year to bypass the usual shirts, sweaters,
ties and so forth. I reached for something special just for Mike. The
inspiration came in an unusual way. Our son Kevin, who was 12 that year,
was wrestling at the junior level at the school he attended; and shortly
before Christmas, there was a non-league match against a team sponsored by
an inner-city church. These youngsters, dressed in sneakers so ragged
that shoestrings seemed to be the only thing holding them together,
presented a sharp contrast to our boys in their spiffy blue and gold
uniforms and sparkling new wrestling shoes. As the match began, I was
alarmed to see that the other team was wrestling without headgear, a kind
of light helmet designed to protect a
wrestler's ears. It was a luxury the ragtag team obviously could not
afford. Well, we ended up walloping them. We took every weight class.
And as each of their boys got up from the mat, he swaggered around in his
tatters with false bravado, a kind of street pride that couldn't
acknowledge defeat. Mike, seated beside me, shook his head sadly, "I wish
just one of them could have won," he said. "They have a lot of potential,
but losing like this could take the heart right out of them."
Mike
loved kids -- all kids -- and he knew them, having coached little league
football, baseball and lacrosse. That's when the idea for his present
came. That afternoon, I went to a local sporting goods store and bought
an assortment of wrestling headgear and shoes and sent them anonymously to
the inner-city church. On Christmas Eve, I placed the envelope on the
tree, the note inside telling Mike what I had done and that this was his
gift from me.
His
smile was the brightest thing about Christmas that year and in succeeding
years. For each Christmas, I followed the tradition -- one year sending a
group of mentally handicapped youngsters to a hockey game, another year a
check to a pair of elderly brothers whose home had burned to the ground
the week before Christmas, and on and on. The envelope became the
highlight of our Christmas. It was always the last thing opened on
Christmas morning and our children, ignoring their new toys, would stand
with wide-eyed anticipation as their dad lifted the envelope from the tree
to reveal its contents. As the children grew, the toys gave way to more
practical presents, but the envelope never lost its allure.
The
story doesn't end there. You see, we lost Mike last year due to dreaded
cancer. When Christmas rolled around, I was still so wrapped in grief
that I barely got the tree up. But Christmas Eve found me placing an
envelope on the tree, and in the morning, it was joined by three more.
Each of our children, unbeknownst to the others, had placed an envelope on
the tree for their dad. The tradition has grown and someday will expand
even further with our grandchildren standing round the tree with wide-eyed
anticipation watching as their fathers take down the envelope...
Mike's
spirit, like the Christmas spirit, will always be with us. May we all
remember the Christmas spirit this year and always.
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